Listen to me

Lately I feel like so many men in my life refuse to hear me. I am so tired of having things I say immediately - IMMEDIATELY - contradicted, without the other party even taking the time to consider and think through and ask questions about what I said. The arrogance and dismissiveness are astounding and…

When we have to lie to ourselves

Chris and I were talking this past weekend about how so strange and incredibly disorienting it is to think -- to really sit and think -- about the fact that everything is determined. As in, when you look at the macro world with its natural laws and causal connections forming each moment in its completion,…

In-between thoughts: dreams are happening

Thoughts between sets at the gym. ~ I have been having the weirdest, most vivid dreams lately. They haven't been particularly stressful (no recurrence of the dream where I'm a waitress and can't seem to get to a table and they're getting super pissed, thankfully), they've just been... Chaotic? Vividly chaotic. I wonder why my…

What does “good” look like to you?

In the Hidden Brain episode "Did That Really Happen?", Shankar Vidantan and his guest, psychologist Dr. Ayanna Thomas, talk about how unreliable our memories are, specifically regarding visual memory. We are remarkably susceptible to the power of suggestion. If someone tells us we wore a blue shirt on Christmas when we were 12, we are…

In-between thoughts: just breathe

Thoughts between sets at the gym. Oh my good gravy. I am spent. I have been running on a low thrum of high-stress for months now and I am just kind of... Done? Like, my body is exhausted. My brain is exhausted. But this coming Wednesday I'll be able to turn in my papers to…