Lately I feel like so many men in my life refuse to hear me. I am so tired of having things I say immediately - IMMEDIATELY - contradicted, without the other party even taking the time to consider and think through and ask questions about what I said. The arrogance and dismissiveness are astounding and…
Chris and I were talking this past weekend about how so strange and incredibly disorienting it is to think -- to really sit and think -- about the fact that everything is determined. As in, when you look at the macro world with its natural laws and causal connections forming each moment in its completion,…
Thoughts between sets at the gym. ~ I have been having the weirdest, most vivid dreams lately. They haven't been particularly stressful (no recurrence of the dream where I'm a waitress and can't seem to get to a table and they're getting super pissed, thankfully), they've just been... Chaotic? Vividly chaotic. I wonder why my…
In the Hidden Brain episode "Did That Really Happen?", Shankar Vidantan and his guest, psychologist Dr. Ayanna Thomas, talk about how unreliable our memories are, specifically regarding visual memory. We are remarkably susceptible to the power of suggestion. If someone tells us we wore a blue shirt on Christmas when we were 12, we are…
Thoughts between sets at the gym. I have no thoughts. My only thoughts are snagged between sets at the gym, and even these I have to kinda work at. "What has caught my attention lately?" "What am I puzzling over lately?" The answer is nothing. If anything is too complex, instead of thinking it through…
Thoughts in between sets at the gym. I turned in my papers for my oral exam! Is it weird that I'm getting excited? I get to talk about my ideas for an hour and a half. I tend to do well speaking in front of people, so I even think the high-stress format might play…
Thoughts between sets at the gym. Oh my good gravy. I am spent. I have been running on a low thrum of high-stress for months now and I am just kind of... Done? Like, my body is exhausted. My brain is exhausted. But this coming Wednesday I'll be able to turn in my papers to…
Ok, ready for a confession? An embarrassing confession? I watch The Challenge dang near religiously. Like, every week. I even have started listening to a stupid podcast about it. Every. Stinkin'. Week. Chris got me started watching this show and I... I can't quit it. OH THE LEVELS OF DEPRAVITY TO WHICH WE SINK IN…
Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.Carl Sagan I recently finished reading A Canticle for Leibowitz, which is one of the best post- (and pre!) apocalyptical novels I've read in a long time. I feel and think many things about it, but one of the things that it made me continue to think about…
Look what I made! Earlier this week a friend organized a little outdoor happy hour haku-making party. It was sooo therapeutic and of course I dressed up to take an abundance of selfies with MY NEW TROPICAL FLOWER CROWN. They last a few days in the fridge, so I keep pulling it out to eat…
