Gratitude

Well, it's not quite November yet, but I really don't get into Halloween at all, so why not jump right in to the gratitude scene a few days early. WHY NOT, I SAY. One of the hardest things about this life we've chosen (grad school... Hawai'i... obscene cost of living in an itty bitty living…

Sitting with sorrows

Lately I've been working to learn how to sit with the big sorrows of my life. Some of my sorrows are not fixable. They are permanent parts of my life (though with differing intensities), they stay with me, and in some instances even partially define my life and my sense of self. I'm not always…

In-Between Thoughts 10.22.18

You know how I said we had finally broken through the heat+humidity? I counted too many chickens. Dammit. Back to sweating. In my late-mid-30s, I think I'm finally gaining the confidence to disregard irrational or unwelcome judgment, sexism, and other false proclamations of my value and worth. I am beyond heartened to see and feel…

At the Moment … 10.18.18

1. Last night I made homemade mayo (so easy!) and today I did 8 pullups in a row. I FEEL INVINCABLE. 2. I have been putting off getting a haircut for too many months now and my hair is officially stringy and raggedy. Also, somewhat related, my mid-30s have not been kind to my hair…

Intellectual appetites

I was thinking today how uninterested I am in reading a lot of theology at the moment and what a huge shift this is in my intellectual appetite. I used to LOVE theology and used to read it almost exclusively. When I was in college, I wanted to be a modern, female C.S. Lewis (until…

In-Between Thoughts 10.8.18

Today (now yesterday) I am feeling despondent over the future of the world and the planet. Kavanaugh was confirmed. The Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change released their Fifth Assessment report and unless we do an about-face NOW, we are screwed. (**Checks who is in power** Yeah, we're screwed.) Brazil is yet another country flirting with…

HSP lightbulb moment

One of the best and worst parts of being a highly-sensitive person is how I "absorb" the emotions or vibe of the room and company I'm in. If someone I'm taking to is sad, I feel that sadness in a vivid, though not-quite-first-person way. If someone is anxious, my blood pressure tends to rise a…

In-Between Thoughts 10.1.18

The trade winds are back! The trade winds are back! DID I MENTION THAT THE TRADE WINDS ARE BACK?! Oof. September was brutally hot and humid and still. I have been physically miserable at home for too long. This weekend was cooler, breezy, and dang near euphoric. I still miss fall weather something fierce, but…