Emotions as needs

Nearing 40, I am learning things I wish I had learned a long time ago. I've long been able to identify my emotions; I may not have had full emotional intelligence per se, but I had a grasp on what I was feeling and why. I have always found emotions to be philosophically rich, a…

Listen to me

Lately I feel like so many men in my life refuse to hear me. I am so tired of having things I say immediately - IMMEDIATELY - contradicted, without the other party even taking the time to consider and think through and ask questions about what I said. The arrogance and dismissiveness are astounding and…

When we have to lie to ourselves

Chris and I were talking this past weekend about how so strange and incredibly disorienting it is to think -- to really sit and think -- about the fact that everything is determined. As in, when you look at the macro world with its natural laws and causal connections forming each moment in its completion,…

In-between thoughts: dreams are happening

Thoughts between sets at the gym. ~ I have been having the weirdest, most vivid dreams lately. They haven't been particularly stressful (no recurrence of the dream where I'm a waitress and can't seem to get to a table and they're getting super pissed, thankfully), they've just been... Chaotic? Vividly chaotic. I wonder why my…