At the moment… 3/8/2018

1. I have a very love/hate relationship with Hawaii, and lately it’s been mostly of the “hate” variety. Yesterday something softened in me, though, and I felt a huge swell of affection and reverence for this place. Who knows what is noodling around in the subconscious part of my brain, but it’s a relief not…More

Emotions and blame

I am super emotional. I feel all the things all the time, whether or not those feelings are mine alone or are feelings I have absorbed from someone near me. (I have a love/hate relationship with that part.) One of the big projects or efforts in my life is to find healthy ways to deal…More

“Do you see me? Am I valuable?”

These last few weeks have revealed to me just how much we are all desperately, subconsciously, aggressively, or fearfully trying to prove to others that we are valuable. I’m surrounded by researchers who want the government or a private funder to find their research valuable enough for financial investment. I’m surrounded by graduate students who…More

Images of the ineffable

Thinking is always, to some degree, an analogy or a representation of what is going on. Language is, too. We can never capture perfectly any other object or thing in words or images, but we can always point to it, gesture towards it, pay homage to it, make it imperfectly present to others. The same…More

Planks, planks everywhere

You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye. ~Matthew 7:5 I’ve been thinking a lot about tribalism, biases, and the difficulty of transcending our intellectual and ideological blind spots. (Several great books on the topic, but the one…More

At the moment… (1/21)

Flowers on my run up and down Diamond Head this morning. This was on the long uphill part that made me want either to die or to┬áreverse all my life choices. How do I succeed at something I’m not innately good at? When/how does effort trump intrinsic ability? When does the imbalance of a friendship…More

Food is love

I recently read The Supper of the Lamb by Robert Farrar Capon, and in addition to the wonderful theology within, I was struck by its paean for food intentionally, carefully, lovingly prepared. Food is life. Food is love. Food is how we nurture these beautiful bodies that carry us through the world, that give rise to our…More

Which reality?

As many of you know, I’m a little obsessed with truth and reality. I love learning and I want to know as much about this beautiful universe as I can. I also want to think as carefully, fully, and wisely as I can about the aspects of this world that we can’t ever really know about (ethics,…More

Beliefs and emotions

Light on Diamond Head on New Year’s Eve morning. As I was muddling through some sweeping emotions and difficult life circumstances yesterday, I was reminded once again (even after writing about it extensively in my book) of the inextricable linkage between our beliefs and our emotions. In particular, I remembered how often beliefs give rise…More